I wonder what it is that makes people eventually hate me?

I shouldn't care but i want to hang on to the people i care about. It's all only a matter of time though. I can already see it happening to the most important people in my life.

The only way i can think of to stop this is to ask my psychiatrist if there is anywhere he can put me for awhile. Couple months maybe. If he can't help me i need to find someone who can, Maybe social security.

I can't not stand living in a house where everyone tells me to just snap out of it and get mad at me for the way i am and yell at me.

I just don't what to do. Maybe i do need a hospital. No one will let me move out because the 600 dollars they get each month to 'take care of my emotional needs' and to watch over me would go away.

Sometimes i think they only put up with me because they get some money. If it wasn't for that i would be gone without a problem.

It's all so stupid i hate it.